September 7, 2013

Body after Baby Update #4

Well, even though there isn't a lot of improvement over here to boast about, I thought I would include an update since it has been quite a while that I have talked about whats going on with me.

To be honest, I was working really hard and seeing slow results before we headed to Edmonton and then Cincinnati. I think the extra workouts plus nursing and watching what I was eating so closely just zapped me of all my energy. I gave myself a break over our trip to Seattle that I really needed and took a few weeks off. I was still trying to eat healthy but I did more walking and just let myself enjoy life, not stressing that I wasn't looking perfect.

I am fitting back into about 3/4ths of my clothes and I broke down and purchased a few new (and larger) shorts to get me through. I think having clothes that fit helped me to chill out a lot. The one good thing was while I didn't loose much weight in my downtime, I didn't gain any either.

Now I am trying to "move my body" each day.
Some days it is an Insanity video... still working on finishing.
Other days it is a run or even a walk with Logan in the Bob stroller.
We've taken Logan to the gym daycare a few times this week and it felt so good to lift weights with Geoff again. 
As long as I get out and do something I feel better about myself at the end of the day!

A few weeks ago, I started thinking about how we have passed the half way point of my leave from work and realized that I don't want to look back and think that all the times that I was stressing about how I was looking, I was missing out on special moments with Logan. There is a lot of change that goes into becoming a mother and it has taken me a while to figure out what I want my new life to look like. Some days it is really hard to feel lost amongst diapers, naps and cuddles and to think back on times where I could go to a yoga class, out for a cocktail with friends or run whenever I wanted. Those thoughts are fleeting and I wouldn't change my life right now for anything but I'm pretty sure all new moms go through something similar at one point or another.

Obviously to feel my best, I would like to look my best but I have decided that I'm okay with a slower progression. What happens to others after having a baby is not the same as what my body is going through. I still am working hard to get back into my clothes and somedays are a lot easier to be okay with my lack of progression than others, but, I feel like I am slowly getting there.

I guess what all this is saying is that I'm still sitting at a slightly higher weight than I normally rest at and I can only hope that if the scale doesn't budge, that all the working out will help tone my body and keep me healthy. Being so close, I can now see that my body is slightly different in places and I may never get back to the exact shape I was before Logan.

Anyways, thanks for following along with me and being supportive through this time. It helps to have virtual cheerleaders to help me along the way. :)

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