May 4, 2011

The Big C (and no I don't mean Cancun)

Well, I'm going to admit it. First because I want to share my experience and second because I'm stressed and I feel like if I write it, it will get out of my head and float into the abyss of the internet.

Last week I found out I have Basal Cell Carcinoma Skin Cancer.


As my dermatologist said, if you have to have one... this is the one you want. It's fine, I will be fine but tomorrow I head into surgery and I'm scared. See the thing is it is located on my nose... not the best place to have something go wrong.

I am going in for MOH's surgery where they will remove the cancer itself and a small layer of skin/tissue around it and then go right in and test it to make sure that they got it all out while I wait in the waiting room. If not I will go back in for round 2, 3, 4 or how ever many times it takes to get it all out without cutting out healthy tissue and leaving a larger area to close (I'm praying for 1). The next day I go into the plastic surgeon where he fixes me all up and then I recover. For the next 72 hours I have to remain upright. No bending to tie my shoes, no laying down to sleep... ugh.

I've been loading up on shows and movies to watch, books to read and scarfs to knit.

I know I'm lucky that we caught it pretty early but I am scared to how deep it will go... that is the unknown. Through the appointment and tears I have learned first hand how scary the word Cancer is even when you know you aren't dying. I can only imagine the heavier feeling other cancers bring. (I hope that this is the only time I have to hear that word again.)

Since I am getting married in October I've been a little worried about scarring. I am supposed to be excited to meet with vendors, engagement photos and Bridal/Bachlorette parties not worried I will look funny. Also forget talking about my job... it's not like I can hide behind a desk... I'm out serving people each day. Luckily for me Geoff has been wonderfully supportive throughout this whole ordeal and I feel very lucky to have him in my life.

It might take me a day or two but I will let you all know how it goes.

Please please please if nothing else get your skin and moles checked out (Especially any that change color, shape or bleed!) and wear sunscreen!!!


Jes said...

Oh my Megan! I am so sorry to hear this! I cannot imagine how scary it all must be. I am praying for you!!!

Dave Diamond said...

Wow... I hope and pray that you have a successful procedure and a speedy recovery!

Runblondie26 said...

I'm sure you're quite nervous, but you've got a great support system around you. Best wishes for an easy procedure and quick recovery.

What prompted you to get checked at the dermatologist?

LiPeony said...

oh gosh! I can't even imagine what you going though. I'm glad that it was found early and I'm here in nyc wishing and hoping the best for you =) .

Krista said...

I'll be praying that everything goes well! And I know it's alot easier said than done - but try not to worry about the scarring. Just remember that scars are simply a steady reminder of your personal journey through life - and you'll still be absolutely gorgeous! All my best!

The Friendly Skies said...

Thanks everyone for the nice comments!

Runblondie26- I had a bump on my nose. It started out as a blemish that kept coming back in the same place and my first dermatologist said it was nothing. Then it got worse, bigger and stayed and the second one I saw took it more seriously. I knew it my head that something wasn't normal and I'm glad I followed up with another opinion.